everything has changed since yesterday afternoon ..
i m no more silly as u guys think about me before ...
NO MORE! ...
well u also do think that i m silly right ..
that's why u did that to me..? was that the reason ...? u thought that i wouldnt be mind did you..?
i thought everything is going great since u were with me
but no more for today ..
not now and after this please no ... i m not a fool k..
i was totally upset and i did cried...u know how much hurt i felt....my heart was like breaking into pieces... when u told me since..
its really hardly to hide crying quietly....i tried to force myself not to cry but i really cant take it anymore and i cried non stop....my eyes got swollen and i dont even dare to face my family..
i have thought of doing something crazy but then i thought of my family and my friend who actually care and love me ...
i had trusted u so much... i just hoping u will always think of me 1st whatever u do...but what's the payback?
time will heal up my pain as what my friend told me...thanks my dear..
promises that u have made for me ....i have thought that as a rubbish and thrown it away..
things that u told me i m still wondering if its really true..
yeah i did break my promise for not to leave u..
but the promises that u broke are much more than me..
i tried to delete everything about u in my comp and also mobile ..
but i admit i cant delete u in my mind ...
i will still miss u so much ..
but i will try not to do that sometimes ..
i regret of putting too much love on u
there is no way i can forgive u like this ...
maybe that is my destiny ....and we dont have any fate at all..
maybe we really dont mean to be together afterall ..
we should end up since my birthday ...but i am still loving u ...i dont want to leave u .....but u force me to...i really have no choice...
yeah ....if we were ended up at that time at least it wasnt making me as hurt as now ...
Why fate always play us around?
i pray everyday for our relationship will go smoothly ....
but it didnt lastly ....
it doesnt mean that i would be blaming God for that ...
it is fate doesnt come to us ....
i still cant make myself to forget about u ..
i m still loving u so much ..
i know ...i shouldnt blame u for all da fault ...since u got ur reason ..
but ..if u really do love me ....u would think about me 1st than that ..
but u chose what ur desire 1st ...not me at all ..
why ....how could do this to me ..
i rather choose that u had lied me all along...at least i wont get that hurt like now...
but ....now..
i only can hope that u r just kidding with me ...just want to make me feel worry or sad or something...
i was taking that as a hope since yesterday
i should be awake now ...i must accept it as it is a reality...
u asked to be friends ...sorry i really cant make it ....
u seemed like u r treating this incident was not really serious dont u..?
not for me ...
before i end this up ..
i wanna say that i really miss u so much ...
if only u could do something to wound up my pain ...
but there is no way u would do that for me right ..
i m too stupid for that and that's why causing this incident to be happen ...
i should blame myself and not u ...
the only thing that i can conclude here is we have no fate and we were not mean to be together..
i m still loving u~