Happy Christmas Eve

it's been a long time i didnt blog...
maybe i feel bored liao..? nope actually ..
i was busy with church stuff and also helping at daddy's shop ..
hm....for now...i have become the fashion consultant of my family ...
everyone does need my consult before any outing ...my mum ...my little sis...
even my little brother does need me to help him to look for the best clothes that suit him ..
he's cute....muacks ...
not bad hor...
tomorrow will be christmas day ...
a public holiday for all the working ppl ..
well ya ....wish u all have a great time tonight ...

for me i wish to have a nice christmas day ...
a memorable day ...
hm ...it's just a wish ...but hope it will come true ..

here is my christmas wishlist:
a new mobile
levi's jeans
esprit watch

that's all expensive stuff huh..?!
yeah ...so u can see...i know i cant get it on my christmas ...but well...
a sweet and and memorable christmas is enough ...
and of course this include hanging out with my friends for countdown ...
unforturnately ...you wouldnt be able to come along ...and we cant celebrate it together ...
wishing u have a great time tonight ...


其实圣诞节是为了记念耶稣降生
今晚就是平安夜了
你们是否觉的自己平安吗?
在路加福音2:14 “在至高之處榮耀歸于上帝，在地上平安歸于神所喜悅的人。”
你們要記的這段經句哦。

Gaining Fat trip...huh..?!

sob..
regret for didnt shop much at kk ..
well....i was actually eat more than shop at there...
i think i m gaining fat now
haha ...
i found many cute THINGS...
well..
ppl who know me well sure know what it is...
i didnt get my freedom at there ...
following my parents everywhere they went ...
sigh ...
but not bad also...
that is what we called it family outing nah ..
i met my lil baby cousy, Billmond
he has grown up dy ..and can walk now...
i found him really cute neh ...
i love to play pillow with him ...=X<---kinda childish ...yeah i admit
the last day of my trip...my aunt called me and told me that Billmond said," i want the jiejie with the pillow!," guess what ...?! that's me nah...haha ..
i m going to miss u too lil Billmond..

happy that i have met u on that day ..
though it's not for long... maybe about 2 hours ++
i really did have a great time together with u ...
muacks...gonna miss u loads...

a hero or a zero...

....i KILLED a COCKROACH today...lol such a funny experience..
actually i was trying to capture it with a mug ...but then it ran through my foot ...i was so scared and kept yelling like 'i lost my son'...
until i cant even take it anymore and i killed it using the mug....
-silly- =P

i feel really down these few days..
thanks waiyap...
you are the only one who can actually make me laugh these few days..
thanks alot for the cheers...
sorry for last time ...its because of last time i seemed kinda like ignoring u ....
...anyway ..i get to know u well dy ...
no more k ..
so dont worry...

i m sorry that i didnt promise to forget about the past ...
it was still remain clearly in my mind...
and it keeps bother me since that day
and i went back to the past just to find back my own happiness ...
but it was all changed...
it was not like before...
i felt that there are now more sadness behind all this...
where is all the happiness that we had before..?
where is all the sweet memories of us...?
it was all gone...it was like just happened a few hours ago and it disappear in just a second..
but no..it's not...i should be dreaming now....yeah i am ...
i am still wondering if its true or i was just daydreaming before this...
it aint true ....everything was just my imagination
yeah it should be ...
~love hurts so much~

i m going to get my contact lense soon ...
cant wait to get it neh ....
last night i went out with baobao and vuivui...
actually last night lingling said she gonna find us right after she had her dinner with her family ...
but then
AGAIN....she didnt come to join us...
seems like she always give us a plane...*.*haha ...just kidding ..
bao brought his laptop ...
we went to bistro onlined...
we have a lot of fun chatting with ivan and tomato zai through msn and also skype...
we also did play 3g...ngek ngek~
well ..they said they wanna looked for the two girls who are working there...
so we zoomed in for them ..
they kinda like pervert neh..=X
dont be angry if u guys saw this..
haha ..
well ...i did saw a jerk ..
he sat beside my table...
i pretended like i dont even know him ....
i still remember he didnt even give back my disc that i lended to him ..
what a jerk.....he's always a jerk ....sigh~

i will continue to love u as long as i can ...

i didnt blog for days neh ...maybe can say about one week ...
its not because i dont want to write but there is still something, its better to put it as a secret in my heart ...
i m still havent make up my mind whether i need to go to kk to study ...
there are many things that would kinda like wanted me to go there...
well ...i think most of all i would be thinking about baby ...
i miss him so much ...
and of course if i could go there to study ..we will have much time together ...
but ..once i thought of now ...i m totally depend on my parents too much ...
i would not like to leave so fast nah ..that's the problem ..
my lil sister is going next year ....
i would be not getting use of the life without her laughs and also sometimes we quarrelled...
i will be missing all these things...
sigh~ what can i do..?
today ... i was surprised to see jason and james came to church neh... miss them so much...i thought they would be staying at home doing their revision as they are having spm now...
well ganbatte guys ...
we chatted about crap things ....and discussed about lil sissy ....haha ..
it was fun...
this afternoon ...i mean just now, i went to jog with baobao,lingling and vuivui...
before that me, bao and ling went to have drinks at qqice..
we chatted about courses that we r taking now ...and sadly bao said he will be going to kk to study soon and probably next year ...
see....everyone is going now ...
going somewhere to study ...
what about me..?
at that time i saw many girls ...i mean ladies...and also some underage were smoking ..
oh gosh ... i felt disappointment in a sudden ...
say NO to SMOKING!
we didnt jog much ...because of raining ...
so we went home ....
sigh~ boring ...
need to drive by myself without companion .....so scary ....anyway i went home safely ..
thanks God for being there for me throughout the journey ..
keke ..
*end*

if only time will rewind back to the 1st day of this year...
if only i could change the past ...
if only i could meet u back....we will start again like before..
if only u would never ever did that to hurt me
if only u werent blame me for everything ...when i was kindly telling the truth..

and if that could happen ....things will not become like this in reality ..
well ...if the 'if' is occured in our reality ...all the ppl in the whole world wouldnt be starving!
now
u cant put 100% trust in a person ....
for u at last will be the one who hurt deeply...
my dearest goh goh....yeah ...you are right ....you told me that this is what we called it life....
yeah i m totally agree with that now..
life goes like that ...whether u like it or love it or not...
and we should remember our life is in God's hand ..
we could never predict what will happen next ...
maybe what had happened now ....God is just wanna give me the experience ...
so that i would not easily hurt by someone else in the future...because there is still a long way to go..
well ...i trust God like always...
i shouldnt cry because of what u did to me ...
because i think its stupid ...
and an apologise doesnt even mean a thing for me ...'sorry no cure'
if only a word sorry can change everything to be better...what for we still need police in this world..?
take action is the most important ...
if u expect me to trust u back after the apology that u had made...
sorry i wouldnt do that anymore....and NO MORE!
after u had apologized....u didnt change ....and things get much worse than before..
so what's the point u apologized?
i really dont understand ....
i try to pretend nothing had happened now ...
i tried but now ....
i felt that what u said to me were all CRAP!
u even tried to 'persuade' someone to trust u ....wow ....u r great ...!
-life-{i m gaining much experience throughout the whole incident...thanks to u}