tomorrow is no more special to me ....i can feel that

i am so not in the mood right now ....
i really dont know how to explain why m i in this kind of situation ..
i just felt like i have been thrown to a deserted islan or even more serious ... a deserted rubbish area
what can i do .....i did asked for help in my heart but its hardly for me to voice it out ...
sweet 18 is actually no more important for me ..
sometimes i feel like ..hey ...why m i 'here'?!...
there is nothing that i can do or to solve it ..
NONO ...
i could just only try my best to smile in front of u all ... yeah ...
i should be happy as tomorrow is my 18th birthday ...
but i have celebrated it earlier ...
so ....there is no more special for that day to arrive anymore ...m i right?
just tell me that everything will be okay <---this words....maybe it will do to cure my
-moodiness-

*Special thanks to ah fen for becoming a good listener ..keke ...*

Cheer up girl~