i m sorry

i m here to say sorry to my friend-W- for one last time..

really sorry for what i had done to u last sunday..

that night ching was performing at stage as a drummer in a band competition ..

well ..i was there to support her with our friends too..

once i reach there..i was happy to see that everyone had arrived .... i tot that night would be an enjoyable night for me ...however i really dont know why..when i was there ...i feel like i m invisible among my friends ...i cant get into their topic! ... "what actually had happened" i asked myself...but i really cant get it...how come i cant get along with them ...i had fun with them in these two month before that sunday but why ...? right after ching performed...i went home ...

that time i really felt very bad mood..i typed one unpleasant sms to -w- which sounds like i dont wanna be friend with him anymore...<--- this sounds a bit childish really ...i m regret of doing it ..its just like i m putting all the fault on -W-

since then ...-W- never ever talk to me at school.... he keeps ignoring me until now... i can see that i m invisible in his eyes...i told him that i m sorry and i treated him like my bestest friend ever ...however he said that he treated me as his best friend as well....but he seems like he didnt take any action for that ...but i did ..i did smile with him today that causing me feel uneasy when i saw he didnt even notice me at all ..and just walked past me ...

sometimes i felt stupid for myself until tears dropped down from my eyes.. when will this end? i cant stand anymore...even today when i was doing my essays[muet exam]... my mind was kept disturbed by this..everyday i just keep hoping that tomorrow will be better...